I Feel that…

I've been crying for days now

and I have run out of tears

When the night

When the darkness and quiet turn on me

my heart is still seized by loneliness

Either awake or asleep

Memories creep over my effete mind

obsess it

torture it

with its bittersweetness

Each word ,each line, each sign of consideration

suffocate me softly like toxins

It sounded so real, so nice, so beautiful

how can everything turns out to be a bubble?

They say have some faith

they say what you give will finally pay off

then why my love

as devoted and serious as it can be

is played by your like this?

everything I've held so hard on to

you tossed them away like shit

telling myself maybe there will be miracles

I don't know how long I 'm gonna deceive myself

but I have to

the reality is just too cruel

it hurts so bad to face it

love is sweet but false again